Reflections on 2017
This was the year He revealed my cancer to the doctors at the earliest stage possible, all so that I could get the treatment that would save my life. He literally saved my life this year. There are a few close to me who wrestle with the fact that "God gave me cancer" this year, but I know the truth - this was the year He chose to save my life. It was the year that He brought an incredibly beautiful medical staff into my life that would forever touch me. He gave them the wisdom to find the cancer, then lovingly and compassionately treat me with exceptional care. It was the year that He would humble me and force me to lie down in green pastures, physically handicapping me to such an extent that I had no choice but to allow others help me....then He showed me the beauty of what it truly means to live in community, to be on the receiving end of that community. He taught me how to allow people to encourage and support me, He showed me how much I need the community He created for me. It was the year He revealed to me how beautiful the people in my life truly are, and how He is at work all the time. He blessed me over and over with encouraging notes, texts, and cards, with gifts and meals, with kind acts of service to me and my family. It truly has been overwhelming. 2017 was the year God showed me how incredibly noisy my life was. He quieted me and took away all the pressures and distractions of my day-to-day life, then He taught me how to find the peace He offers as I learned to truly “be still” with Him.
Most importantly, God revealed to me how He has been with me in a whole new way this year. His presence has been tangible to me every single step of this diagnosis and treatment. God is with us, my friends. Never doubt He is here, living inside of us, just waiting to reveal His glory. He comes to bring us comfort, and strength, and peace. If you can’t feel His presence, perhaps your life is too noisy as mine was. Be still with Him and you will find all that I have found. It doesn’t happen when you’re still with Him just once, but when you’re still over and over, day after day. He will reveal His glory, you just need to choose to listen.