Journal Entry ~ 09/21/18

Satisfy us in the morning with your steadfast love, that we may rejoice and be glad all our days.  - Psalm 90:14

When you read through this psalm, you get the sense of honesty that rings through scripture. I love that the Bible doesn’t ever hide the truth about what living in this world will bring us. The Bible doesn’t pretend it’s going to be easy, nor does it hide the pain and anguish our hearts will feel as we walk through a difficult trials. We will will be tested by this world, and our sins will be revealed. The world we live in is broken, and that brokenness will rub up against us all the time, causing such heartache and despair. We live every day with flawed people – people who will think, say, and do the wrong things.  And those flaws will stir up the sand and our hearts because we continue to look to the wrong things to fill us.

The struggles of this world do not have to dictate whether or not you find joy in this world. You can find joy, even in the most difficult struggles, if you allow the truth in this verse to comfort your heart. Far too often we look to this world for satisfaction – we try to fill the void in our hearts with relationships, with material things, with experiences. We look horizontally for what we should be finding vertically.

It took me a long time to understand that this world will never satisfy the longing for love in my heart. People are broken, and so they will break our hearts. But God’s love is steadfast. It is rock solid, unmoving, and always there for us to access. If we try to fill the void in our hearts with the love we find on this earth, we will forever be disappointed.  People are broken, and they love conditionally. Even those who do it right most of the time, will get it wrong some of the time. 

Our hearts were created to be filled by a perfect love – that’s why there is such deep sadness when it’s only filled by the broken love. We will only find true satisfaction when we allow the perfect, steadfast love of our God and father to fill our hearts.


Press on ~ you are loved 💗

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