Journal Entry ~ 11/17/18

37 Then he said to his disciples, "The harvest is plentiful, but the laborers are few; 38 therefore pray earnestly to the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into his harvest." - Matthew 9:37-38

Spending a week in this verse has been uncomfortable for me...because it means every day I have to come back to God's real purpose for my life. His purpose isn't to make my life easier or more comfortable, His purpose isn't to answer my pleas for protection of my children or that He would work things out in their lives, His purpose isn't to heal or comfort my Sisters in their trials.  

While He may answer my prayers and do all those things because He is a loving God, that's not His purpose for us. His purpose is sanctification - to mold us and to transform us into the likeness of His Son. He sent His Son here to live so that we would have this model for our lives. So, if we take some time to really look at His Son and how we should model our lives, we see a man who taught us much - how to love people more than ourselves, how to put God above all things, how to care for the orphans and widows, etc. 

His life and His words did give us great direction on how to live the Christian life. But what was His life really all about?  What did He really do with His life?  While He lived on this earth, He had one mission - to tell others about God. So, if we are being molded and transformed into the image of Christ, shouldn't our lives become more and more about this one central thing?  Telling others about Christ. Wouldn't all the other stuff fall into place if that became our one focus?  

I know the answer, and it still makes me uncomfortable. My flesh wants my purpose in life to be about my comfort, not about pushing myself into those uncomfortable places where I share the gospel. But I see that now and I'm confessing it, working on developing a truly repentant heart about it, and allowing Him to mold me into who He wants me to be, and not who I want to be. 


Press on ~ you are loved 💗

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