Journal Entry ~ 01/02/19

I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living! Wait for the LORD; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD! 
—Psalm 27:13-14

Anyone who has known me for any length of time knows this has been my life verse through difficult seasons of trials. It’s where I turn when the storms begin to rage and chaos takes over.  It’s where I find His peace when my heart is aching for living in this broken world. The confidence in David’s statement that we WILL see the goodness of the Lord here in the land of the living washes over me when the world screams something different. We will see His goodness, our job is to simply wait for Him to work. 

Waiting is hard. I don’t wait well. Waiting can  make us forgetful and cause our fears to rise. But we need never fear that God is at work while we wait. He's doing what no one else can. If our eyes could only see how God is moving all those pieces around in our lives for maximum impact, it would blow our minds He's up to something big that doesn't affect only us - He's also after those around us. 

Furthermore, He's not just interested in impacting the present. He is the One who is, and who was, and who is to come, the Almighty.  God is mindful of what was and what is to come, and He intends to show Himself mighty in all of the above.  We can't even begin to comprehend why we should wait, our job is to simply trust in the wait. 

We know from scripture that we store up treasures in heaven when we are obedient - treasures that cannot be taken away. When we wait on Him in a difficult trial, trusting that He will resolve the situation in the way that is best for us, trusting that He cares for our loved ones more than we even do, trusting He has a plan even in our heartache and pain, we are being obedient. Every time you choose to wait and breathe out the words, "I trust Him," you are being obedient, and you are storing up treasures in heaven that cannot be taken away. 

The beautiful part is that when I falter, when I give in to the fears and anxiety or despair takes a hold of my heart for a time, it doesn't negate the treasures I've already stored. They are there for me. And when I get a hold of my thinking, confess and repent my anxious thoughts, and grab a hold of His promises again, I find my faith is strengthened and renewed. 

I want to be as transparent as David was in this Psalm when voicing my fears and anxieties, and as bold as he was in trusting Him.  Remember, we don't have to understand what He’s doing to trust Him. And if we need more faith to trust Him, we know we just need to ask for it. 

These two verses have gotten me through more trials than I can even remember now. Speaking the words out loud and believing them is so powerful in overcoming our deepest valleys. He promises you good, my friends, we just need to wait on His timing. Grab a hold of that promise and don't let go. 


Press on ~ you are loved 💗

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