Journal Entry ~ 02/15/19

18 The LORD is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. 
19 Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the LORD delivers him out of them all.  - Psalm 34:18-19

It can be hard to allow God to be near to us when we're broken hearted. Sometimes our inaccurate perception of God will cause us to run away from Him during the seasons when we hurt the most in our life. 

We may fear that He might want to take advantage of our vulnerability and bring even more pain into our lives. Perhaps we're angry He allowed something into our lives that hurt more than we feel we can bear, or maybe we trusted Him for something that He chose to not allow. Or sometimes we pull away because we just think He doesn't care. 

But God is not like that. He doesn't kick us when we are down, and He is not indifferent when we are suffering.  He is our Father.  And His Father's heart is deeply moved with compassion for us as He runs to be close to us so that He can save us when we are crushed in spirit.  

Have you ever tried to comfort an adolescent who's heart is broken, but will not allow you to comfort them? "You don't understand!!" As a mom, your heart breaks for how you want to take the pain away from your child, how you want to just change their perspective of the situation and bring them comfort, how you want to just give them a hug and wipe their tears away...but they won't let you in. 

As a Father, He is very near to us in our deepest heartache, but - as the adolescent - we have to drop our guard and let Him in. And the way we do that is to pour out our hearts to Him, to start at the beginning and share our hurt, and anger, our heartache and sorrow with Him. 

In those moments, we become vulnerable and He is able to enter in the most gentle way. When we need Him most, and we open our hurt to Him, we find He fills us with a comfort, a strength, a peace and a joy that is beyond explanation. Cry out to Him - out loud. Pour out everything you're feeling, and come into the presence of the Lord. 


Press on ~ you are loved 💗

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