Journal Entry ~ 05/22/19

23 And Jesus said to him, "'If you can'! All things are possible for one who believes." 24 Immediately the father of the child cried out and said, "I believe; help my unbelief!" - Mark 9:23-24

What an amazing promise Jesus makes to us in this passage - all things are possible for one who believes. Nothing is impossible for God. We may look at a situation as impossible, we may see no way out, but God. He promises the impossible. The problem isn’t the impossible situation, the problem is we don’t believe, so we fail to see the promise. We try to understand the trial through our own limited vision, and when we can’t see an answer, we call the situation impossible. But God. He never sees impossible. 

Here’s the reality —> The enemy wants us to quit. It's as simple as that. Any time we feel like giving up, or we feel like we just can't go on, like we want to scream at the heavens, "How much more??  How much longer??", it's the enemy bombarding us with lies. When we feel like God's plan is not working out for our good, or when we feel like his promises must just not be for me, that's the enemy talking. 

The current trial I am walking through has left me screaming those words in prayer - there have been days the burden is so heavy, I’m not sure how much more I can take. We’ve been told by multiple specialists now that there’s not much they can do for my son, but the acute symptoms he is experiencing are overwhelming him. They continue to escalate daily, and I am helpless to change anything. It’s out of my control, and it looks like an impossible situation. 

Daily, I feel the attacks of the enemy to just give up. Daily, I feel the whisper that He’s not sovereign, that He’s not got this, that He’s not working all things for good. Daily, I hear the question, “If God is good, then why is he allowing my son to suffer again, why is He allowing yet another impossible trial into his life?”  Daily, I wonder if he will ever be saved under the weight of a difficult trial. Daily, I fear my son will take his life because he sees this trial as impossible. 

We must learn to recognize the lies when we hear them and replace them with the truth - that God's promises are for each and every one of us and He promises to work all things out for the good of those who love Him. But, gosh, this can be so hard in the moment. It takes intentionally, and it takes a fight. We are in a battle with the enemy, and daily we have to resolve never to give up the fight. 

This father gives us 5 quick words we can say in those moments to turn the lies into truths - I believe, help my unbelief.  When we cry out these words of surrender to our Father, He rushes in with the affirmation that He is there and He is at work. He knows we battle the enemy, and when we call on Him to help us in the battle, He sends in legions of angels to guard and protect us from the enemy's attack. I know because I have felt the comfort of His Spirit rush in when all Hope seems to be gone. All we have to do is call on Him. 


Press on ~ you are loved 💗

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