Journal Entry ~ 05/29/19
And going a little farther he fell on his face and prayed, saying, "My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as you will." - Matthew 26:39
Jesus isn't afraid of the pain that is in front of Him in this moment, or the humiliation or shame that He must endure - though any one of those would cause us to plead out of the trial. Instead, Jesus is repulsed by the sin He sees in the cup and distraught over the separation He must endure from His Father. He doesn't want to become something as horrific as our sin because God will no longer be able to look at Him.
The thought of being separated from His loving Father is what drives Him to His knees in desperate prayer. So it got me thinking...does our sin cause us to go to the same place when we look at it? Our sin separates us from God - yes, we are made clean because of our belief in Jesus, but God cannot look upon our sin. Do we view our sin in the same way as Jesus did? Are we distraught over the separation it causes between us and God?
I think we have a tendency at times to minimize our sin, or to excuse it away with a simple confession. We might feel bad for a moment when we lose our patience or say unkind words, we even may humbly apologize to the person we hurt or confess in prayer, but does the realization of how we impact our relationship with God when we sin ever really drive us to our knees in tears of desperate pleas with Him.
If I'm being honest, my sin does not. I do not like my sin, I confess it when I see it, there are even times when recognizing my sin drives me to tears, but for the most part, my sin does not take me to this place. Praying for eyes to see my sin as He does so I can truly confess and repent of the ugliness of my sin.
Press on ~ you are loved 💗
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