Journal Entry ~ 07/21/19

I wait for the Lord, my soul waits,
and in his word I put my hope.
My soul waits for The Lord
more than watchmen wait for the morning,
more than watchmen wait for the morning.
Psalm 130:5-6

After we've cried out to the one and only true Deliverer, we are instructed by Scripture to exercise unwavering and daily confidence that God is coming to our rescue. That means we stop complaining about our situation, it means we stop worrying He won't deliver us, it means make ourselves comfortable in that pit another day while we wait. Spiritually speaking, we are to stand up and watch...and wait for His deliverance with eager anticipation. 

The second half of Psalm 130 is all about waiting on the Lord. But the focus is not on waiting through the pain, it’s not about persevering through the pain. It is about waiting in Hope. 

I have never waited well. I'm a doer, not a "waiter".   I’m extremely solution oriented - I see a problem, and I immediately go about brainstorming solutions, then I pick one and go.  I move through those steps so quickly at times that I often frustrate the people around me. Couple that with the fact that I tend to be a fairly organized person who can be extremely efficient with my time and my processes, and you've got someone who doesn't wait well. Waiting wastes time, I'd rather get stuff done. I'm that person who brings a bag of work with me any time I have to sit in a waiting room because I don't like to "wait", I like to do. 

Now, none of that is necessarily bad.  God created me to be an organized thinker and an efficient processor - neither of those are any worse than the fact that God created the next person to be a creative thinker or a dreamer. But that aspect of my personality does lead to my downfall when I'm stuck in a situation I cannot change and I need to wait on Him. 

Waiting is such an important step in growing our faith and trust in Him. It is in the waiting that He roots out all those little nooks and crannies that hold our flesh. It is in the waiting that He reveals our weakness, our lack of faith, our pride. It is in the waiting that He breaks us, but it is only in the waiting that we can see Him magnified. It is only in the waiting that we come to find His strength. 


Press on ~ you are loved 💗

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