Journal Entry ~ 08/06/19

“There I will make a horn to sprout for David; I have prepared a lamp for my anointed. His enemies I will clothe with shame, but on him his crown will shine.” (Psalm 132:17–18)

We often desire the same blessings as David received - a horn of protection,  a lamp for the darkness, and a crown on our heads. We look to scripture to see these things are promised to us, we plead for them on bended knee, and we look for them with expectant confidence. 

But do we seek God with the same passion in our lives as David? Do we chase after Him with our whole heart, longing to be with Him?  Do we risk our lives to be with Him, or desire so deeply to build a place for others to worship Him that it consumes our very soul?

I know the promises of Scripture are for us. I know that He offers to be our strength and our protection, our light in this dark world, and He loves us with a Father’s love. I know we have access to these blessings as children of God, but as I meditate on this scripture I know my heart often does not pursue God with the same eagerness as David. His deepest desire was to make a home for God to dwell - my deepest desire is often for my home. 

Just this week, God has revealed some desires of my heart that have ranked over Him. I have been so consumed with the distractions in my life, that I’ve once again put Him on the back burner. I’ve prayed, I’ve even prayed fervently, but it’s just been for how I want Him to resolve the situation to my benefit. My heart has not been a welcoming place for God to dwell. The truth is He wouldn’t have had much space to live because there is just so much other stuff in there taking up space. 

David teaches us we should have a passionate drive to enjoy God’s presence in our own lives, that our first priority should be to make our hearts a home for Him to dwell. We should have a passionate drive for the blessing and benefit of the house of God, the community of His people.

It grieves me to realize once again my priorities have been in the wrong place. But I love a God of redemption, a God who continually chases after me and reveal my heart to me. Looking for His forgiveness this morning, and working on seeking Him with my whole heart. 


Press on ~ you are loved 💗

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