Journal Entry ~ 08/22/19

So Abraham called the name of that place, "The LORD will provide"; as it is said to this day, "On the mount of the LORD it shall be provided." - Genesis 22:14

The Lord will provide. These are the words my heart needs to hear this week. To be able to surrender that which we hold on to so tightly, we need to completely trust in these words. If we really are going to lay down our children on the altar of God, we need to know in our heart of hearts that He has them. If we are going to surrender control of our difficult marriage, then we need to trust deep within our hearts that He will provide restoration. If we are going to truly let go of the anxiety that wreaks havoc in our minds, then we need to know that He will provide what we need when we get to the moments we fear. If we are going to be able to release our abuser from the box of unforgiveness, we need to trust in His plan to provide us with peace. If we are going to really trust that He will heal in the most difficult diagnosis, we need to believe in His healing power. The Lord will provide. 

I think this is where most of us get tripped up and take back control. We hear the enemy whisper 'but what if He doesn't?' and we step in and to 'help'. We end up saving our kids from a situation that would have been an opportunity for God to rescue them, we let our spouses know how they should be treating us,  we refuse to move in our anxiety, we remain a victim, or our illness begins to define us. 

The Lord provides. Believing those three little words in the deepest parts of our hearts is critical to finding the peace we need on this chaotic journey. The Lord provides exactly what we need, exactly when we need it. His plan is perfect. Even if His answer is no, He provides. Even if our children do not come home, even if our marriage never changes, even when our worst fear is realized, even if it appears the bad guy wins, even if the healing doesn’t happen. We stay in the fight. We keep believing in His plan because ultimately He promises to work all things for our good - that means even if the answer is no.

The Lord provides. We need to meditate on that promise day and night - this is what glorifies our God and Father, and this where we find His blessing of peace and joy. 


Press on ~ you are loved 💗

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